Seeing what this is requires the total surrender of what you think it is and that is not something you can do. It is elusive as hell because it’s not at all as you imagine. Try to put it into words and the moment you do, it’s opposite is also true, or false, or both at the same time. This cannot be held or written about, not even understood. There is something to discover but it’s not what you expect. The game still holds the power to enthrall, to draw us in, to pull the wool over our eyes, sometimes even when we are dead tired, so beat that we don’t have another step left in us. Most often we bounce off … can’t believe that we’ve found it, that we are it, and take off running again. We chase ourselves to the end of every dusty road, so certain that who we really are is just around the corner, that we will catch the object of our quest for certain this time, that the slippery truth can’t stay hidden forever, and run smack dab into … ourself. Spiritual seekers in search of the holy grail, the golden touch of enlightenment, are equally poor at finding their prey, the prey equally good at hiding.Īt the end of the movie Jason is talking to his creator, played by Albert Finney, and is told, ‘you made yourself into what you are’, and I cracked up. He’s so good are avoiding capture that he falls in the ‘too good to be true’ category, or put in spiritual terminology, he is elusive as hell, a will ‘o the wisp, so good he might was well be an illusion. He’s a super soldier with incredible instincts and abilities. In the Bourne movies you have Jason being chased by US covert operations, so covert that they aren’t on anyone’s books and have ranged so far off the farm that you can’t call it farming anymore. Maybe it’s just that I see analogies everywhere, but even if that’s the case here, these are doozies. When I caught it this afternoon, I started laughing.

I don’t know why it took me so long to see it. Having enjoyed the Bourne movies - yeah, I liked them a lot - it suddenly came to me that they are great spiritual quest analogies.

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